Happy Birthday, Renuka :)

September has left, welcoming October with monsoon rain. How I wish I could just stay cuddled up all day, with a cup of hot cocoa.

The month that I adore, the month that I'm always hyper-active, the month that gives a smile  on each new day, the month of festivals and colors, the month of my BIRTHDAY!!!

Here I am, blowing my 25 candles on Oct 12th.
On this special day, I seek the lotus foot of God for my betterment.
The years past did taught me many things. And I thought that's life.

 

I was wrong. My life started at 23. Yes, I learned what life is; economically. I haven't talk about relationships and family. Not yet. Life pushed so hard, deteriorating my health and education. To an extent, I swear I thought I can never cope with these. All I do is just pray. Pray. And here I am, truly thankful to Him, instilling faith in me.

The end of comfort zone showed me the other me, who strongly passed the hurdles.

The only thing that I missed so much during that moments was a friend. A friend to talk to. Sometimes, we can't face so much burden alone. We just need a listener. Being introvert, I had hundreds of friends to socialise but not a single to share my situation.

And, now, my true best friend is none other than Narayan Himself.

Learning from my past, may this birthday brings me loads of happiness and inner peace. May I grow old in age but grow younger at heart. May I grow in compassion, less in temper. A wiser and confident person.

~The best writing comes out when you find yourself broken. It's like your heart gets ripped open and all the feelings spill out into a beautiful mess on paper~

Food for thought-the mid 20s crisis

Reaching mid 20s, anyone who do not go through this phase, there's something wrong with you :)

Mid 20s is the most critical phase of life. Finishing degree, believing that a scroll capable of securing a job for you.And then realising that there more thousands more with you on the run hunting for the exact job you wanted. You'll lose stamina and motivation. Just believe this :

And, you landed on a job. Money comes in, and happiness don't stay long. Money goes out to pay edu loan, car loan, house loan, bills, etc.

And you get tired with your job. The same work, the demanding boss, the competitive colleagues. Not to mention discrimination. You're no more productive. Your works stay behind.

And you get this 'disease' :

You just settled and feeling fine with life (excluding the job), marriage talk slowly arises. All memories comes back alive.

You haven't move on from your past, and you can't forget. Neither can you accept a new one in life. You fight with parents, finally choosing to stay single.

And, you have this weird feelings that leaves you feeling empty. 

This is the 20s crisis, from what I've seen happening among the 20s'. Well, I'm still configuring what I'm doing, and what I'll be doing. And, of course, there must be something served on my plate, just not now.

 In the meantime, enjoy life. Have fun. You will not get this in 30s.

I always think of being kids again. Now, I've drop this out of my consideration. I can never be one. But, hey, I can hangout with one or two of them. Instead of being stress free kid, I can LEARN how to feel free of stress, despite of the stress I'm having.

 Don't get drowned in dilemma. Just surf! You will made it through! Sayonara!

October Baby

I watched 'October Baby' yesterday, to fill my boredom. What can I say, I felt very sleepy, yet I forced myself to finish watching it, despite knowing it will be aired again in two days time.

October Baby- I assumed somehow this might be about a teenage girl born in month of Oct, possessing Libran's personality (lame!). But, I was right at one part, she was born in month of Oct.

This is a very different story. I can relate this movie to movies like 'Taare Zameen Par, Fashion, etc' where the world is given a chance to see the real image of an individual life, which you would've never imagined. But, this is entirely different.

You may heard about abortion, but a failed abortion?
No. Well, I didn't.

The story starts with a young girl, Hanna having asthma, depression suddenly collapsing on the stage. Being examined by the doctor, she was told that she was adopted, and that was from a failed abortion. Angry that her adopted parents have never told her, and her biological mother never wanted her, she set to Alabama with her friends to find for an answer from her mother.

Things get harder when the clinic she was born closed and caught by police for breaking into the clinic. Then, when Hanna and Jason (Hanna's childhood friend, cared a lot for Hanna, later becoming her sweetheart) with the help of the police found the nurse who was with Alyssa Porter during her abortion.

Hanna had a twin brother, Jonathon, who died hours after born. Not a doctor myself, just got to know, 'they' are called cells, not babies. Jonathon was born without hands, as the 'cells'  accidentally were ripped off, while being removed. Hanna was the survivor. The nurse hand down the wrist tag, bearing Hanna's mother's name, born 7th Oct 1991. She had her name changed, for she wanted to go to school, have a career. By this time, I was completely (mentally and emotionally) engrossed in the movie.

Meeting her mother with a new family, just to realise she didn't care about her, Hanna went back with her adopted father. When she knew all the truths which was hard to fathom, she went to a nearby church, were her mother always spend her time.

She learnt anger is not a solution, that by forgiving everyone, you attain your freedom and happiness.
Ending of the movie, Hanna going her brother's tomb, and leaving a small note to her biological mother, saying 'I forgave you', Hanna goes to college with Jason.

The adopted father, loved Hanna so much, that he couldn't bear losing her. To me, I feel everything was son fine about the movie. The only thing that was quite weird was Hanna's friend, Jason. Jason is a cool and handsome guy, being the popular guy in college. So many girls after him, and he cares a lot for Hanna, even leaving his girlfriend to help Hanna in search of her mother. As all movies have shown us that popular guys normally not kind-hearted, this was totally different. Maybe I'll take some time to accept Jason's character.

If you pay enough attention, you would actually feel being in Hannah's shoe, and that you too, almost cry knowing your past. The most unforgettable, was when Hanna questioned on why her mother not wanting her, what mistake she did. The perspective of abortion from the child's view was shown under the microscope.

This is a very good movie, as it has made me googled to learn more about abortion, shocking me that abortions had been done since 1868! Wonderful actors, lots of food for thought, and you will never think of under-age pregnant and abortion.

This movie is highly recommended, and there is no obscene as well :)

I miss her

MUNIS!

Hepburn and I have slightly different character

Is it true? Catherine Hepburn did not follow the rules, and she had all the fun.

I obeyed the teachers
extra attention, extra love and extra care I get
My life was fun!

I obeyed my parents
they trust me
I was not questioned on my decisions

I obeyed the general rule
not to befriend males in teen age
I had all the fun in the world
No heart ache, no sorrow, no depression
All I remember was
break time, athletic club, friends jokes, pimples, messy hair

I obey the rule to respect elders
I was fondly remembered as the obedient girl
They treat me like important person
It was fun!

I obey the traffic rules
zero summons, free-accidents
I"m alive and happy
It is more than fun!!

So, tell me, did I miss out any fun???

Maybe Hepburn trying to say about disobey some particular rules (which I couldn't figure out, the scope is  humongous), but I believe I had all the fun, and I'm still having fun!!