I just need to talk to someone, and I found you, my blog.

I feel like crying. Cry very hard.

But I can't even weep.

My heart feels numb, yet I can feel my heart is crying. The sound is intense.

The truth is, 

I feel like a failure.

Failure because I compared myself with others.

Realising they are way smarter than me.

Yet, I can't be without comparing.

You either break that and emerge as a successful person or
you build humongous wall surrounding you

It takes one person to ruin your whole life.

It's worst when that happens during your mid-life crisis.

It's either I can't cry at all, or I cry till morning.

Yes, I feel like a failure,not able to do anything extraordinary.

A real failure.