Saturday, March 30, 2013


Give me a giant hug,
That will last for aeons,
The hug
that will waft away
the wounds, the hurt,
the bitterness
the agonizing pain…
So that when I recall
in presence
of your real warm tight hug,
That only love is real.

Friday, March 29, 2013

The heart would like to spill some emotions

Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again.

Yes, I agree with above anonymous quote. You will agree with me when life throws you such a situation whereby you're stucked, gloomy with all feelings mixed up; anger, frust, depression. At this point, you can only cry and move on, let the situation alone. You will hurt, but you will eventually heal. Giving time some time, lying to one's self that you will be fine in His arm.

And it's horrifying to see that I actually let these situations mess up my entire life. 
Things do not mess up, it's people who does that. We gave them enough bullets, being subservient, giving too much space in our life. Our vulnerability were taken advantage; be it purposely or accidentally. 
You loose your character, the real you, obsequiously making them happy. Fear uproots, bridges burnt, leading us to build humongous wall, shielding our self from more pain. 

Most of the time, our close ones will pull the trigger purposely. They know you very well and how much it can hurt you, but they will do it; thinking 'alah, dis girl oni, she wil be okay wan'. And, you, on the other, can't take it, end up hating them and hurting yourself. It always happen.

If they treat you as important as how you treat them, chances are they will understand your pain. If not just forget it. Your plea fall on deaf ears.

We make mistakes. Its okay. Life need to be adventurous, not masterpiece.
Make mistakes, learn from it. Laugh at your mistakes. But repeating the same mistakes again and again, not something to be laughed. It's...maybe idiotic?

It's disheartening after so much of talking, discussing, whatever u name it, they still do that.
Yes, the right term is Selfish and Ignorance. Let them be. 

Sometimes, you really hope someone will banish you to a place where you are stranger. Complete stranger.

Let me explain my feelings: infuriated, hurt, teary, frustrated, betrayed, used, disparage (tempestuous, in general)

A feeling outpouring on a bad Friday.

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Stolen from Marley

Don't get deceived with the title. I'm used to manipulating things. 
A lengthy invaluable quote by Bob Marley. A little alteration from me. Spend some time going through it. Each verse makes your jaw drop, as whatever you've felt and struggled for the exact words; well Bob Marley has done it beautifully.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. They cry with you because roses have thorns and they celebrate with you that thorns have roses. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. They love your beautiful heart and your appearance is not in the count. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk under the moon become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face, knowing someone has thought of you today. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Their presence means the world to you. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Your mind keeps chanting their name every second and once in a while, you say it aloud and find little joy in them. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Your build the strength by giving and receiving at all times. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Shrimathi Vishaka Hari Interview

I've been waiting aeon for a special interview of Vishaka Hari, even if it's just a 2 mins interview. For the first, I watched her interview, seeing another facet of Shrimathi, off the stage. She didn't talk much yet she delivered a very short speech with deep meaning.

A truly admirable lady, who left her prospective accountant job to learn kathakalakshepam, very talented and blessed by Sri Narayanan. I couldn't agree more, Indian literatures and arts are vastly rich.Even one lifetime is not enough to master one composition!
'So much that we need not to look up to the West to buy their ideas. It is they who should borrow from us'. Her confidence in speaking about Indian heritage without fear is palpably clear that she holds a high respect on Hinduism especially on our culture and arts.

'You maybe very advanced in materialism but we are very advanced in our spiritualism'.-quoted by Swami Vivekananda (that's what I heard in the clip). I've never heard of that but Shrimathi Visakha Hari has her points there.
You can live a life without materialism but you can't live a peaceful life without spiritualism.

 They could have interviewed her more on Hinduism rather than asking inconsequential details (about the 9 yard saree). And, they missed asking her about the jimiki :(

 Spiritualism is the elixir of Hinduism, or should I say the other way round.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

The evil you do, remains with you: The good you do, comes back to you!

••• Story time •••

A woman baked bread for members of her family and an extra one for a hungry passerby. She kept the extra bread on the window sill, for whosoever would take it away.

Every day, a hunchback came and took away the Bread.

Instead of expressing gratitude, he muttered the following words as he went his way:
" The evil you do remains with you: The good you do, comes back to you!"

This went on, day after day. Every day, the hunchback came, picked up the bread and uttered the words:
"The evil you do, remains with you: The good you do, comes back to you!"

The woman felt irritated. "Not a word of gratitude," she said to herself...
" Everyday this hunchback utters this jingle! What does he mean?"

One day, exasperated, she decided to do away with him. "I shall get rid of this hunchback," she said. And what did she do? She added poison to the bread she prepared for him!

As she was about to keep it on the window sill, her hands trembled.
"What is this I am doing?" she said.

Immediately, she threw the Bread into the fire, prepared another one and kept it on the window sill.

As usual, the hunchback came, picked up the Bread and muttered the words:
" The evil you do, remains with you: The good you do, comes back to you!"

The hunchback proceeded on his way, blissfully unaware of the war raging in the mind of the woman.

Every day, as the woman placed the Bread on the window sill, she offered a prayer for her son who had gone to a distant place to seek his fortune.For many months,she had no news of him.. She prayed for his safe return.

That evening, there was a knock on the door. As she opened it, she was surprised to find her son standing in the doorway.

He had grown thin and lean. His garments were tattered and torn. He was hungry, starved and weak.

As he saw his mother, he said,"Mom, it's a miracle I'm here.

While I was but a mile away, I was so famished that I collapsed.

I would have died, but just then an old hunchback passed by.I begged of him for a morsel of food, and he was kind enough to give me a whole Bread.

As he gave it to me, he said,"This is what I eat everyday: today, I shall give it to you, for your need is greater than mine!"

As the mother heard those words, her face turned pale.
She leaned against the door for support. She remembered the poisoned bread that she had made that morning.

Had she not burnt it in the fire, it would have been eaten by her own son, and he would have lost his life! It was then that she realized the significance of the words:
"The evil you do remains with you: The good you do, comes back to you!"

Moral ♥ : Do good and Don't ever stop doing good, even if it is not appreciated at that time.

----> Read this short story awhile ago. It's not inspiring or touching, rather wisdom and truth. Live abide your faith. A sentence with with a very deep meaning.